Juil 31, 2014

Israel : Day 22 – Fatigue and loneliness

Marlene Feron, who already translated Day 17, took the time to translate Day 22 of my daily report of my “Life in missiles”. Thank you Marlene.

Weariness

I usually wake up around 6 A.M. by the garbage collectors. I sit in front of my computer and I write about my previous day. Today, perhaps because the siren of the penultimate night altered my sleep, I woke up at 8:00 A.M. and was unable to write a line. Doubt. Weariness.

I decided to take some time off, no radio, no TV, no FB, no Twitter. My phone, however and spend a few hours at the beach with my friend Michelle.

We do not remember, we rewrite memory

And here I am ready to talk about the war in Israel on the 22nd day, July 29th. 22, as many letters as in the Hebrew alphabet. July 29th., date of birth as well as and death of filmmaker Chris Marker. He said « We do not remember, we rewrite memory. » He made a documentary about Yves Montand entitled « Solitude of a background singer » and in 1960 a documentary on Israel, when barely 12 years old, « Description of a Struggle. »
Yesterday, July 28th, marked the centenary of the beginning of the First World War and the birth of Marcel Duchamp. I mention these events because they are topics that interest me, literature, cinema, art and history. Usually, that is to say….

That was yesterday and I can not remember my day. Between cease-fire and aborted truces. Radio interrupted by the calls of sirens. The wounded. The situation of civilians in Gaza. Death. Funerals of the ten soldiers killed yesterday. In Netivot, at the end of the burial of Meidan Mimoun Bitton, 20, a siren. People protected themselves as best as can be, some by lying on the ground, their hands crossed on their head, others hunkering down.

Solitude

And this feeling of loneliness. Spanish artists including Penelope Cruz and Pedro Almodovar signed a petition denouncing a « genocide » in Gaza, not to condemn Hamas and its taking hostage the civilians in Gaza as well as here but to condemn Israel threatened by rockets and infiltration. Yet I, I love Almodovar!

Loneliness on Facebook. So much hatred. So much stupidity and ignorance discharged. I see one by one my friends leaving Facebook, tired of the attacks to which they are subjected. And they are the most open, the most ready for dialogue. I’m not sure that this withdrawal is the right solution but I understand the lassitude.

The loneliness of Sarah who is now technically unemployed. No tourists, no guided tours.

Solitude.

The Dalai Lama says: « Do not let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace ». This is true, but in recent weeks, it is particularly difficult.

Sunset and rocket attacks

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We go and see the sunset. I need these moments. Of the beauty of the world.

Night, rocket attacks on the vicinity of Jerusalem, Neve Ilan, Bet Shemesh, Gush Etzion, Hebron.

An hour later, a new barrage of rockets. Not on us. But…Holon, Bat-Yam, Bnei Brak, Givatayim, Ramat Gan, Savyon, Kiryat Ono, Petach Tikva. Bizarre. You feel like being in the eye of the cyclone. However, for us, this twenty-second day will be a day without.

I long for a solution to be found and have all this stop.

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Israel : Day 42 and 43 – Here we go again

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Israel – Day 26 – Hope and despair

Israel – Day 22 – Fatigue and Loneliness

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